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In the beginning

When I first started to blog it was to keep myself busy between the long periods of time my friends weren’t online and then as they never came back I just kept on with it….but over time my reasons for blogging have changed.

I always have so many things going on in my mind at one time and I tend to find it hard to clear it thus it keeps piling up and up. All the what ifs and such build and build and my mind cant think straight which leads me to become quite anxious and paranoid and extremely frustrated in real life.

The thing about my blogging is that it helps me focus on one thing only and in turn helps my mind clear of all the unnecessary clutter that fills it. The simplicity of putting a cute outfit together and finding a nice place to take a pretty picture…all of that is so helpful in relieving my mind of all that stress.

I always find that after I post a blog I am able to deal with stuff in real life so much easier, I think this becomes clear even to those around me which always makes me giggle because I can still remember times when they didn’t want me to be on second life as much and they had to deal with my crankiness.

Now there is alot less cranky and frustrated moments but there is also alot less time spent in sl as well.

ย I always wonder what makes people blog is there a driving force behind why they do it other than making pretty outfits and getting likes?

So I thought about why I blog and decided to share it with you all.

Me xxx

Wearing

Hair ~ ::Exile:: Full Of Grace Naturals // C88

Eyes ~ :Diamante: Fairytale Mesh Eyes (Black ) // *Dream Fair*

Eyeshadow~ .ARISE. Evil Shadow // ::Suicide Dollz::

Mouth ~ Nyam Nyam Mesh Mouth

Ears ~ AITUI Ear System: Gen 4, Heart Plugs

Stuff it

Necklace ~ .DirtyStories. Nera’s Necklace// ::Suicide Dollz::

Top ~ -Pixicat- Vibrant.Vest (Black) // C88

Pants ~ {Toxic Candy} BiBA LooseJeans // New Release

Heels ~ :Diamante: REM – Slink Mid // *Dream Fair*

Bangles ~ Noodles – Addilee Bracelets Black // C88

Poses ~ [La Baguette] Busty IV

Mwuahs xxx

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Feeling Lost….How do I find myself

Last couple of days have been a little hard and Iย don’tย know how to even start to explain it really just a feeling of being lost andย unsure of who I am and why I am here doing what I do.ย 

Iย don’tย make an impact there is nothing special that I do that hundreds of othersย don’tย do as well I do make a wow statement Iย amย just me and I just do what I do.

Even just reading that above sentenceย doesn’tย make sense but its exactly how I feel.

I’mย tired and lonely and really have those moments that if I justย disappearedย I know itย wouldn’tย matter, there would be no peopleย askingย where I was or wondering what had happenedย everyone’sย lives would just go on as normal.

Maybe one day some one mightย accidentallyย remember me and have a passing thought but itย wouldn’tย be anything of importance justย aย momentary thought lost again.

Now I’m not writing this for attention I am writing this because it my blog its my way of expressing myself its a way of helping myself visualize my thoughts so that I can process them and help myself.

I think we all have these moments some stick with you and some can be easily fixed with the love and friendship we build…..maybe that’s the answer I need to get out more and make new friends and hope that I don’t get hurt all over again.

We shall see if I find myself again.

Feeling Lost

Wearing

Hair ~ little bones. Lose Count – Browns

Skin ~ **PUMEC ย INGA Skin Spring // We

Body ~ Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Outfit ~ [Twinkle] Just Like You (Shoes Included)

Bracelets ~ :Diamante: Provocative Reloaded Bangles // Indulgence BDSM &KINK Fair

Pose ~ Del May – In Between

Destination ~ Sinners Heaven

Mwuahs xxx

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When you finally get home

I don’t know about you but I love being home its the one place that I can feel at total ease with myself and everything. So if it comes to the question of going out or staying home I always want to stay home. I know that this can get in the way of alot of socialization but for me Id much rather have people come over so that I don’t have to leave.

Im not sure if this is a disorder of some kind I know I have a few people that think so but for me I just feel more comfortable.

If I have to go out I will I’m not making up excuses I will go out if its a must but if there is a choice you shouldn’t ask you already know my answer.

Now Second Life is a different matter. I love my SL home for sure I will spend hours a day doing this that and the other and loving my time there but in SL i love to go out I love to explore I love to visit new places. So in SL ask away and I’ll go anywhere.

When you finally get home

Body

Hair ~ (Chemistry) Hair – Mila – HUD.1

Head ~ LeLutka Mesh Head – Karin

Body ~ Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Skin ~ **PUMEC Renata (LeLutka Applier) Summer

Eyes ~ -SU!- Nova Eyes // VIP Group Gift

Clothing

Armands ~ MUKA -Armbands Love

Chest Piercing ~ :Diamante: Wrath

Corset ~ ย [ Infliction ] Muah Corset – Lilac // Lubbly Jubblies

Skirt ~ [ Infliction ] Anara Skirt – Black

Extras

Pose ~ Label Motion – Sissy

Destination ~ Home Sweet Home

Decor

Dust Bunny – My Summer Retreat Daisy House Boat (RARE) // The Arcade Gacha Event

Dust Bunny – My Summer Retreat Daisy Pier (RARE) // The Arcade Gacha Event

All little extras can also be found at The Arcade Gacha Event.

Mwuahs xxx

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I Dance in the Dark

I want to dance

Body

Hair ~ [monso] My Hair โ€“ Choa โ€“ Black/Brown // FaMESHed

Body ~ Maitreya Mesh Body โ€“ Lara

Eyes ~ -SU!- Nova Eyes // VIP Group Gift

Ears ~ [MANDALA] Stretched Ears

Eyelashes ~ Mai Bilavio:. Carmen Lashes Set

Skin ~ {AIMI} Skin HD Diane Mint Lips 6

ย Outfitย 

Dress ~ [Infliction] Bustier Dress – Blackย 

Choker ~ .Pekka. Triquestra choker- blackened steel

Necklace ~ .Pekka. Supernatural pentacle necklace โ€“ blackened steel

Hand Chains ~ !TLB – Witchy Hand Chains // Witchy Hour Hunt

Slink Nails ~ Dark Passion – Koffin Nails – Slink Pentacle // Witchy Hour Hunt

Heels ~ :Diamante: Provocative Reloaded Boots (Slink High) // Indulgence BDSM &Kink Fair

close ups

Extra

Poses ~ Label Motion – Sissy

Mwuahs xxx

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Hello Huricane

Hello Hurricane

Body

Hair ~ MAGIKA HAIR – [03] HUSH

Head ~ LeLutka Mesh Head โ€“ Karin

Body ~ Maitreya Mesh Body โ€“ Lara

Eyes ~ -SU!- Aileen Eyes Amesthyst

Eyelashes ~ Mai Bilavio :. Carmen Lash Set

Skin ~ Glam Affair (LeLutka/ Maitreya Applier) Artic

Lips ~ Glam Affair (LeLutka Mesh Heads) Orchidea Lips Applier 10

 

Outfit

Top ~ …][Murdock !nc][… Ooopsy Top 3 // Color Me Project

Pants ~ [ abrasive ] Strap Leggings – Tattered // ::Suicide Dollz::

Nipple Cover ~ .DirtyStories. Celtic Nipple Covers // ::Suicide Dollz::

Tattoo ~ { DATUM } Gasoline โ€“ Black Tattoo // ::Suicide Dollz::

Facial Piercing ~ :Diamante: Sincere Facial Piercing //MP

Armbands ~ *MUKA* Spike Bracers // The Dark Style Fair

Extras

Pose ~ [La Baguette] Busty IV 34

Destination ~ Pigeon Island

Mwuahs xxx

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Dont tell me I can’t be me.

Lately I have been struggling to really be who I am I always seem to be led to what others want me to be…I think now that I have let go of these people I am finally figuring out how to let the real me come out.

And I love Me!

This one

Bodyย 

Hair ~ .DirtyStories. Sweet Girl Hair // ::Suicide Dollz::

Head ~ LeLutka Mesh Head – Karin

Body ~ Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Eyes ~ -SU!- Aileen Eyes Amesthyst

Eyelashes ~ Mai Bilavio :. Carmen Lash Set

Ears ~ AITUI Ear System: Gen 4 Heart Plugs

Skin ~ Glam Affair (LeLutka/ Maitreya Applier) Artic

Lips ~ Glam Affair (LeLutka Mesh Heads) Orchidea Lips Applier 10

Outfit

Bangles ~ :Diamante: Interlocking Multi ring Bangles //MP

Tattoo ~ { DATUM } Gasoline – Black Tattoo // ::Suicide Dollz::

Top ~ [-S-] Batty Set – Black // ::Suicide Dollz::

Shorts ~ .DirtyStories. Sugar Jeans Shorts // ::Suicide Dollz::

Facial Piercing ~ :Diamante: Sincere Facial Piercing //MP

Chest Piercing ~ :Diamante: Wrath Chest Piercing //MP

Extra

Pose ~ [La Baguette] QueCalor 2

Mwuahs xxx

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Doing It My Way

So lately I have been finding it hard to find destination spots that I like …I know they are out there but I need to spend alot of time finding them and hoping it will be right for the outfit I am working on. So I decided that until I can get that sorted out I will be doing some blogging on a plain background to allow me to keep up with my wonderful sponsors and get my blogging done.

I hope that when I find a great spot or a great set up for a pic I will do a post with that but in between it will be a little plain lolย 

Doing it my wayBody

Hair ~ Magika [01] Beans

Eyes ~ -SU!- Aileen Eyes Amythest

Eyelashes ~ Mai Bilavio :. Carmen Lash Set

Ears ~ AITUI Ear System: Gen 4 Heart Plugs

Head ~ LeLutka Mesh Head – Karin

Body ~ Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Skin ~ Glam Affair (LeLutka Mesh Heads)ย Karin Applier Artic

Lips ~ Glam Affair (LeLutka Mesh Heads) Orchidea Lips Applier 10

Outfit

Nose Chain ~ .random.Matter. Sanza Nose Chain Black

Tattoo ~ .Identity. Body Shop – #5 Last Story // Fantasy Gacha Fair

Dress ~ {Toxic Candy} Cathy Dress Noir // New Release

Bangles ~ :Diamante: Interlocking Multi ring Bangles

Shoes ~ .HollyWeird. Betty Flats Black // Suicide Dollz

Extras

Pose ~ [La Baguette] Busty IV 38

Mwuahs xxx

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These dark eyes hide even darker thoughts.

These dark eyes hide even darker thoughts

Body

Hair ~ Clawtooth: Lush – Fruit Pop // May 2015 Group Gift

Head ~ LeLutka Mesh Head – Karin

Body ~ Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Skin ~ย  **[PUMEC] โ€“ RENATA Skin โ€“ Summer // Shiny Shabby

Eyes ~ Buzzeri – Celestial Eyes Sapphire

Outfit

Facial Piercing ~ :Diamante: Serenade

Abdomen Piercing ~ :Diamante: Pheromones

Swimsuit ~ Lushish Catz – LEAH fitted mesh Bikini // Color Me Project

Tattoo ~ Infected – Havoc

Extra

Pose ~ [La Baguette] Splendour Poses

Destination ~ Home

Mwuahs xxx

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When you feel like your finally making progress and you see the light.

Theres a Light

Body

Hair ~ [taketomi] Gretchen – Bento

Eyes ~ Buzzeri – Elysium Eyes – Pitch

Ears ~ [MANDALA] Tapers

Head ~ LeLutka Mesh Head – Karin

Body ~ Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Skin ~ **[PUMEC] – RENATA Skin – Summer // Shiny Shabby

Outfit

Top ~ {Six Essence} Knotted Shirt //Ross Event

Shorts ~ [La Baguette] Flawless Shorts – Black // The Showroom

Heels ~ {Six Essence} Alexia Heels (Slink High) – Black // The Showroom

Facial Piercing ~ :Diamante: Lust

Necklace ~ Kibitz – Silence Sphere – Blackened Steelย 

Rings ~ :Diamante: Edge Rings (Slink Casual)

Extras

Pose ~ [La Baguette] Busty IV Poses

Destination ~ Sinners Heaven

Mwuahs xxx

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I Stand Alone

I Stand Alone

Body

Hair ~ .LeLutka. Cassie Hairbase Set 02 Long

Head ~ LeLutka Mesh Head – Karin

Skin ~ -Glam Affair- LeLutka Head Karin Applier – Jamaica

Eyes ~ Buzzeri Elysium Eyes – Pitch

EyeShadow ~ ::SlackGirl:: LeLutka Applier 90’s Shadow2 // Cosmetic Fair

Body ~ Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Skin ~ Glam Affair Maitreya Body Applier – Jamaica

Ears ~ [MANDALA] Tapers

Clothing

Outfit ~ [Twinkle] Clash (Slink High)

Necklace ~ Kibitz Silence Sphere

Rings ~ :Diamante: Edge Rings (Slink Casual)

Facial Piercing ~ :Diamante: Lust

Extra

Pose ~ La Baguette – Lazy Pose

Destination ~Sinners Heaven

Mwuahs xxx